Although deep down in my heart I know that by hook or by crook I will ultimately (I hope so…) be employed and when I look back at this part of my life, I will regret feeling miserable on a daily basis just because I haven’t secure any. It is just that sick feeling of being in process. You know the end will come but at this point in time, the end seems to take the longest time and you can’t see it happening anytime soon. =( And since you can’t picture it, you start to get panicky and torture yourself by feeling miserable and like a loser everyday (that’s me anyway…). =(

I guess I should enjoy now. As many wise people have been telling me that after you start working, it will be hard to enjoy like now. But this creepy feeling of not having any job is hindering me from enjoyment. As I try to indulge in enjoyment, I have this nagging feeling that keeps haunting me with “you are jobless and yet you are enjoying”. ARRRGGHHHHH!!!!!

Then and again, is it my bad to be picky and not take up the offer I got? Should I have just taken it up in order to save myself from the nagging feeling? Perhaps not. I am looking at a career to be exact and not just a job. Definitely I want to go into something that is interesting in some sense to me. I don’t want to be doing something that I hate or is boring to me. Is it wrong that I want to find a job that I feel, at the very minimum, enjoyable in terms of its nature and learning opportunities? I mean as humans, it is rare to find people who wakes up in the morning, happily excited to go to work everyday. I mean definitely there are times where you are happy to go to work but not on a daily basis, I presume. However, at the very least, I am looking for a job where I get busy and learn things that I don’t fall asleep reading. And even if I am required to read boring stuff, I am willing to because it is a necessary step in my fulfilling task.

It’s like doing project. I don’t really fancy the research part as it is usually tedious especially since the correct sources are not provided. But since it is a vital process before you can come up with your analysis, conclusions and suggestions for your presentation and report, which are more enjoyable, you do it willingly.

I didn’t expect that this ranting of mine will end up as a post on it’s own. =P

amor,esperanza y fe 12:15 PM.

Although deep down in my heart I know that by hook or by crook I will ultimately (I hope so…) be employed and when I look back at this part of my life, I will regret feeling miserable on a daily basis just because I haven’t secure any. It is just that sick feeling of being in process. You know the end will come but at this point in time, the end seems to take the longest time and you can’t see it happening anytime soon. =( And since you can’t picture it, you start to get panicky and torture yourself by feeling miserable and like a loser everyday (that’s me anyway…). =(

I guess I should enjoy now. As many wise people have been telling me that after you start working, it will be hard to enjoy like now. But this creepy feeling of not having any job is hindering me from enjoyment. As I try to indulge in enjoyment, I have this nagging feeling that keeps haunting me with “you are jobless and yet you are enjoying”. ARRRGGHHHHH!!!!!

Then and again, is it my bad to be picky and not take up the offer I got? Should I have just taken it up in order to save myself from the nagging feeling? Perhaps not. I am looking at a career to be exact and not just a job. Definitely I want to go into something that is interesting in some sense to me. I don’t want to be doing something that I hate or is boring to me. Is it wrong that I want to find a job that I feel, at the very minimum, enjoyable in terms of its nature and learning opportunities? I mean as humans, it is rare to find people who wakes up in the morning, happily excited to go to work everyday. I mean definitely there are times where you are happy to go to work but not on a daily basis, I presume. However, at the very least, I am looking for a job where I get busy and learn things that I don’t fall asleep reading. And even if I am required to read boring stuff, I am willing to because it is a necessary step in my fulfilling task.

It’s like doing project. I don’t really fancy the research part as it is usually tedious especially since the correct sources are not provided. But since it is a vital process before you can come up with your analysis, conclusions and suggestions for your presentation and report, which are more enjoyable, you do it willingly.

I didn’t expect that this ranting of mine will end up as a post on it’s own. =P