I should be hitting the books for corp reporting since I might need to do adjustments for my corp project regarding the last week’s topic. I am planning for a rainy day since we got assigned to do the adjustments for operating leases. =( Who knows what responsibilities will fall upon us again! But I am feeling lazy and reading all the blogs just makes me feel like blogging too!

It had been a terrible time for me so far. At least from last Saturday all the way till yesterday. It was hectic and full of hiccups.

I was down with a bad flu since Friday and rationally, I started to pop pills to rid myself of it. But a dumbo like me ended up aggravating my condition. There were 2 types of flu medicine that I need to pop. One is a drowsy formula for night and one is a non-drowsy formula for day. And your Ms. Dumbo here, stupidly went to pop both inside her mouth on Saturday night.OMG! What a waste of medicine and such a dangerous act!

Then Sunday came although the flu is still there, there was nothing suspicious. However, by the time night falls, my head started to spin. I was down with a horrible headache which I speculated to stem from popping the wrong medicine. DUMB! DUMB! DUMB!

Never mind.

So my weekend was burnt with projects except for an Ion trip with my parents on Sunday evening. I felt so bad for not being able to stay up to read through the stuff that Mel and Tarynn came up with for Consumer Banking.

Monday was a wonder as well. Tarynn and I skipped our 12 noon risk class and went about doing projects. I was clearing up files for the operating leases and marketing for consumer banking while she looked through the notes. Then came the E-bomb (since its through email…HAHA…)! Our business processes group mates went to consult the prof without our knowledge and the email made it sounds like the prof wants us to change our whole concept. Anyway, it turned out to be a misunderstanding and we just need to add on to our existing idea to make it more grand and large-scale. PHEW! What a scare!

Something is wrong with me. There are stories about people turning into werewolves when night falls on full moon days. But I turned into a dumbo every night when I am down with flu. So here comes another dumbo episode.

I had plans to sort out the stupid GDP problem that we had with the economic analysis of our corp reporting project and probably read through the marketing and operations plan for consumer banking yesterday night. But again, STUPIDLY, I went to take my drowsy flu medicine. I am really DUMB! I am speechless at myself. And I only realized my mistake shortly after I turned on my laptop.

FINE! I can live with that.

Then came the second mistake which is more severe than the first. I finally remembered that I need to book my driving test this coming Dec. So I went to check the dates and apparently, because I was so busy with projects in the past weekend, I missed the date that I wanted which was 17^th Dec by one day and the earliest date available to me was 18^th Dec. But sad to say, 18^th Dec was only left with the bad timing of 8.25am. So I decided to give it a miss! Then there were slots available till 22^nd Dec. I was in a dilemma of whether to wait for the 23^rd Dec timings to be released or take up the 21^st Dec date since there was a 2.45pm slot which was good. 22^nd Dec was only left with 3.45pm slot which I found to be too late. As a kiasu Singaporean, I decided to just take 21^st Dec 2.45pm first before it gets booked out and probably I can change to 23^rd Dec when it becomes available.

BANG! BANG! BANG! WRONG MOVE! TERRIBLE MOVE!

It slipped off my mind that once you booked your test date, you CANNOT cancel and change to another slot or date because they wouldn’t refund you a single cent! That means your 156 bucks will go down the drain! I turned cold.

Moral of the story?

NEVER EVER ATTEMPT TO DO ANYTHING WHEN YOU ARE DROWSY! JUST GO TO SLEEP EVEN IF YOU WORRY ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCES!!!

And now, Ms. Dumbo is stuck with a driving test date of 21^st Dec (Monday) at 2.45pm without revision lessons on 20^th Dec and 19^th Dec. =( I really hope I don’t fail again if not I might consider getting my parents to forget about ever seeing me drive. The amount of money that I see flying into the driving centre’s pockets is perhaps enough to finance my online buys for 1 year! Ehhh.. perhaps 8 months… No! 1 year! My heart was in great pain whenever I make online payments for my driving lessons. =(

Nonetheless, stubborn Ms. Dumbo in her distress mode still did up the GDP calculations for corp reporting after whining and whining to Mr. Mugger and her baby about her blunder. By the time I finished, my head was really spinning at such a great speed that I fell asleep, uncomfortably. By the time I woke up again, I realized that Tarynn asked me a question about consumer banking project via MSN but my sis had turned off the internet and I couldn’t reply her. =(

I am so sorry, Tarynn! Thanks Mel and Tarynn for doing up the final copy of the marketing and operations plan for consumer banking! I am sorry that I wasn’t able to look through it every time you girls finished. =(

Thanks baby and Mr. Mugger to hear me whine and whine about my stupid driving test dates.

Okay! I had my share of whining. Below are some pictures of the fascinating G2000’s reflective walls in Ion. I guess these walls might be all around Ion but we only discovered it’s wonders in G2000! Heehee…

Look at how weirdly skewed we were! Heehee…

Then daddy looloo came to join in the fun!

Gotta hit the books now so that I can have time for a short nap later to rest my weary body. I really need to rid this flu fast before all the deadlines come hunting for me!

Oh! And I think I am really powerful at whining! Just look at the length of this post! HAHA…

amor,esperanza y fe 1:57 PM.

Woke up with flu at the wrong side of the bed today so evil thoughts kept running through my little wicked mind. HAHA…

I dislike people who push past you without saying excuse me or sorry. I was wondering whether they didn’t realize that it is very irritating and rude or they just don’t care. Then I came up with a third option that probably they know they are irritating but they are bidding on the fact that people usually wouldn’t be rude to strangers even if they are offended (at least for minor cases). So, they can happily push through people without saying excuse me and sorry and they wouldn’t come face to face with any confrontations.

I would love to see someone shout at one of these irritating people. STOP PUSHING IDIOTS!!!

Okay, I told you I am cranky today. So evil! Let’s talk about yesterday then.

Isaac brought me to this cool place called Archipelago. It is near to Raffles Place and Clarke Quay. We went there after his interview at UOB Plaza 2.

They brew their own beers and they provide 6 different flavours of which 5 are white beers and 1 is a dark beer.

We tried the Straits beer which is on the left and Sammu on the right. I know I know… They both look about the same. HAHA… Too bad, I was having blocked nose and I couldn’t really taste the beers just the bitter aftertaste. =( But one thing I can testify, their beers were DAMN SMOOTH! Superb! It’s almost like drinking water! Isaac loves both the flavours and I think we are definitely going back there! We like the atmosphere and they do not have noisy background thus, it is easy to chill and chat.

We had tequila chips with chili con carne (beef). It is delicious especially the chili con carne. Yummy!

Look at Isaac’s lecherous face as he attacked the tequila chips with lust.

Not forgetting the cheese sausage with potato wedges. Another palatable dish! But I prefer the tequila chips. I was craving for Mexican food but their chicken quesadillas was sold out for the day. =( How sad! I really wanted to eat that!

Why is he always attacking food with such vigor? Hmmm….

Caught in the act pictures! Haha.. I think Isaac’s mum will faint if she were to see these pictures. HAHA.

When I am bored, I will browse through the pictures on my phone and I discovered a couple of pictures where I looked weird. The first one, I have no idea how come my eyes looked so small and thin. I looked like I am going to fall asleep. The second one captured me with an awkward expression. I should be wearing a glutton expression since I am posing with the delectable tequila chips! Weird! The last one, my eyes looked sly. HAHA…

Okay, this is random.

Anyway, I am going to sleep my flu medicine’s effect is kicking in and I feel drowsy. =(

Oh! Thank you Tarynn for introducing me to 2NE1. I love em’! Can you believe it? I am watching their videos on youtube almost everyday. I am NUTS!

amor,esperanza y fe 12:37 AM.

What will He not bestow!

Who freely gave this mighty gift unbought,

Unmerited, unheeded, and unsought,

What will He not bestow?

It’s just comforting to know that no matter how grave the matter is or how tough the trial will be, you will always live past it. Now when I looked back at my posts last week which are full of antsy comments and depressing writings, I felt like laughing out loud. I guess it happens to all of us. When you look back at some ordeal you went through in the past and narrating it to others, even though you kept describing it as tough or horrific etc., you will usually describe it with smiles and laughter.

So since everything will ultimately revert back to normal and a stable state, the only part left that is difficult is the process. It is always painful or even unbearable to know that you are still in-process. Waking up everyday, remembering the terrible things that fell upon you and getting the sick feeling in your stomach and not wanting to get out of bed but you are left with no choice and have to get your ass out because you can’t afford not to. It’s the harsh reality of life that sometimes makes you feel like you are all alone and left to fend for yourself. Then you become depressed. The thing isn’t about being all alone; it’s about being alone and stuck in a shitty situation. That’s what’s makes people go nuts!

I felt happy that I have my Lord (I am sorry to all my friends who doesn’t share my faith especially if you felt uncomfortable reading thisL). At least as I make my way through the tough times, I know there is someone there with me and who will not only hold me through but also ease my pain. There is someone to turn to when you need help in things that fellow humans won’t be able to aid in - someone who is undefeatable.

At times I felt bad towards the Lord. It’s like I always remember Him when I am in need of help but during the good times, I do remember Him too but I guess I don’t seek Him as intensely as I do during distressful times. In times of suffering (maybe it’s too serious a word… HAHA), I tend to forget about kind and loving people like my family and friends (Isaac inclusive) and felt that I am all alone in that depressing situation. And I go all emotional and dispirited. I only remember the Lord (realistic? Maybe…)

But it is also in times like these where I give my full thanks to the Lord. Not only for knowing Him but also for what He has done.

amor,esperanza y fe 10:16 PM.

I have so much to blog about I don’t know where to start! Okay, let’s start with the newest addition to my wishlist.

This cool Gucci wallet that I saw on someone else’s blog! And I love it! Stole this picture from that blog. Heehee… like any normal greedy human being, I want to see other colours available for this wallet!

Love the ribbon at the top! =)

Moving on to slightly more serious stuff…(its not that serious anyway :P), I was wondering about Tarynn’s blog post along with all the recent broken hearts I heard about.

I wonder, I really do, as to whether it is true that you need to be tortured by love before you get to a perfect one.

I remembered the times when things were ugly between me and my ex and all the foolish things that I did.

How pissed I was at myself for being such an idiot and blah blah blah…

But it all seemed to be in the past. So vague and long-ago that it seemed decades ago when it all took place. I just know that it was a horrendous situation that I never want to be in again but I couldn’t exactly emphathise with myself of the long ago anymore.

I feel lucky for the current stable relationship even though there are still many flaws in it. But then and again, which relationship doesn’t?

At least at this present moment, I felt lucky that my relationship is not giving me major problems and heartbreaks that will push me to pray for the ground to swallow me up or a deadly accident to befall upon me so that I could escape it’s menace.

But, who knows? It might one day developed into a pain in my ass just like how it was decades ago with another someone.

Is it really true? That this stability that I am enjoying in the present was because I suffered in the past? Ain’t there anyone out there who hasn’t suffered before? And is it really true that my love torture is totally over? Or this is just the calmness before the storm? Well, we will see about that.

I wonder again about other stuff. On Sunday in my church, the elder gave a message with these three formulae.

Faithful + Workless = Dead Faith

Faithless + Good works = Dead Works

Faithful + Good works = Perfect Faith

As you can safely project, the elder was encouraging us to move towards the last formula. I suppose I fall under the first formula in case you are wondering. HAHA…

I wondered about this particular bitch (sorry but I can’t help but typed that because certain things that she did and I heard just piss me off!) okay girl.

Well, actually I don’t know her at all but the impression I got was that she seemed to do a lot of community service. That is good works right?

So let’s assume she’s got strong faith and assume that her community service is considered good works. That means she has perfect faith?!!! Then what about all those sickening things that she did?

Perhaps these formulae are still flawed. Or there are some assumptions that weren’t specified. Perhaps, something like by being faithful, you are supposed to display only good behavior.

This whole post is so unorganized and desultory!!!

I am sorry! That’s what happened when you have too much thoughts but too little time to blog. ;)

amor,esperanza y fe 1:49 PM.

Cancel me cancel me

I am always the first

When events clash and choice need to be made

I am always the first to be cut.

What’s new?

amor,esperanza y fe 2:19 PM.

I didn’t think that shit brings over itself to the next day. But it does.

Because I am experiencing it right now!

amor,esperanza y fe 2:09 PM.

Shit comes at the same time, don’t they?

As if one isn’t enough for one to bear, they like to come in gangs. Even the stupid rain is joining their fun.

Talk about demoralizing. How “down” do they want you to be before they are satisfied? Or their lust for your suffering is insatiable?

amor,esperanza y fe 2:18 PM.

Since I will be busy at the wake this week, I should be doing something more constructive than blogging when I have time to spare.

But apparently, I am not. HAHA..

I am still pondering over the question of whether my uncle’s death was a matter to be depressed about or it should be viewed more optimistically. Well my uncle is a Buddhist/ Taoist, correct me if I am wrong but it should be that, for them a good man goes to heaven. Even if he doesn’t, the netherworld’s life is viewed to be about the same as the living world since people burn “houses”, “cars” and all sorts of things for the dead.

Since death isn’t equivalent to suffering for a good man, then it only voices down to the reason for the death. Definitely people have negative feelings towards suicide cases because we felt that it’s similar to murder. I guess it’s whether the death is natural or unnatural and whether we believed the person to have much unfulfilled matters. If the person have much unfulfilled matters in our view (e.g. premature death) or it’s an unnatural death, we will feel sorry for the person.

For my uncle, he had 3 children and out of the 3, only 1 is married. So perhaps, he might be worried for them. Then and again if you view it from another angle, all his children are grown-ups and they can take care of themselves well so that shouldn’t be an unsettling matter for my uncle. That’s my guess.

Actually, I don’t want to think of his death as a negative event although it’s sudden. It may be bereaved for my cousins and us but to him, maybe he doesn’t have much matters left in this world that he would desperately need to complete. My assumption again.

Maybe it’s my self-deceiving thought but I just want to think of it as he could finally reunion with his wife who passed away last year and that he doesn’t have much unfulfilled matters.

I hope I am right.

amor,esperanza y fe 6:44 PM.

Sorry to disgust you guys with the above collage. But anyway, that’s what I did last Saturday. I was at Bishan community library with Mr. Mugger because he is having a midterm today.

As you can see and imagine, I was the one fooling around and being a major disturbance while our dear Mr. Mugger was slogging away with wonderfully ugly formulas and scaring me with them at the same time. They looked distinctly like integration and differentiation.

YUCKZ!

I think I am going off for a nap. I hope I can wake up later. =(

Need to get back to the wake. My whole week will be spent between the wake and school. =(

To be honest, secretly I felt happy. An excuse to escape from those nasty books! Heh heh.

Oh! And I finally went for a hair cut. Now the only pending matter to attend to is my dental checkup. ;)

amor,esperanza y fe 3:10 PM.

I can’t feel as optimistic about my uncle’s death in comparison with my granny’s death.

Perhaps its due to the fact that its a sudden death whereas, my granny died at a ripe old age. Although we all missed her and can’t bear to part with her, we all know that perhaps it’s time for her to go. Plus, I guess we all felt that we did our very best to take care and accompany her when she was alive.

But my uncle, my uncle who doted on me since I was young, who took care of me when I was little, I can’t say I did all I can to accompany and care for him like he did for me. =(

amor,esperanza y fe 12:20 AM.

So as promised, the photos from Queue Factory.

Tarynn, I really need to thank you for your amazing photography skills and awesome camera! Thanks for making my arms looked not as gigantic as it is in reality!

Thanks Tarynn for them! Without your camera, I think we will really end up with no pictures because my phone camera was too lousy and the pictures that I took were all blurred but one random picture that I took of the club.

Here are some desultory pictures that I took while waiting at the platform at Raffles Place before heading over to Butter.

amor,esperanza y fe 10:40 PM.

Butter Factory should be re-named Queue Factory on its ladies night. First, you need to queue to get in, next you need to queue to get your drinks.

Seriously, I didn’t know ladies night was so packed at Butter. Although my upcoming advice will sound absurd, especially to seasoned clubbers, but really, get your ass down there by 9p.m.!! It isn’t the least bit crazy. Trust me! It will make your night much better!

We started queuing at around 10.30p.m. The queue was already friggin’ long and by the time we got into the club, it’s already 12a.m.!!! Then we had to queue for our drinks again!! The worst of all is that after queuing for around 45 minutes we couldn’t meet the 1a.m. mark and had to pay for our drinks. The start of the night is just queues, queues and more queues. =(

To add on to the disaster equation, dumbo me wore my new heels to Butter yesterday and my legs were in great distress. My feet were numb from the pain but I am lucky enough to avoid abrasions and blisters.

What irritated the hell out of me was this gang of “ang mohs” queuing in the drinks queue behind us. They were a tipsy and rowdy crowd. Not only did they cut queue, they were hitting each other and fooling around without a care about the people around. I swear I would seriously had cursed F*** at them if one of them hit me amidst their game of folly. I wasn’t in the best of my moods then with my aching legs and my queue fatigue.

You see, the queues at Butter are the most horrendous and much-hated sort. The sort that doesn’t move and when it does, it was as slow as a snail.

Reading up till here, you must be thinking that I had a lousy night at Butter.

But to be honest, it was FUN!

Exhilarating!

After the queuing episode, things went from bad to Best!

It was quite fun to dance around with Baby but it’s a shame that I didn’t get to dance with Deep, Tarynn, Mel and Sue since we got separated. The music at Butter was good and I was enjoying myself even when I didn’t get high on alcohol. I was completely SOBER! =( Boo!

William, baby and I rotated around the 2 room! We had to!

You see the music at Bump is more hip, popular and definitely the nice kinds that you would want to dance to. But it was so crowded, stuffy and hot over at Bump that we had to escape back to Fash which was in a more Mambo mood. Fash’s dance floor was a lot less packed till the point that it was cold inside. And since by the time we went into Bump, we couldn’t make it into the dance floor proper, we decided to move around the 2 rooms to balance our comfort and music choice.

We met a few funny guys in the dance floor but nothing major happened, no weird hands and if there were, I would gladly bring that guy back to earth by taking the liberty to drop my foot in high heel on his foot at free fall speed.

Although we were without “guy luck”, we did stumble upon some interesting sightings. We saw this male drunkard whom we found amusing. Perhaps we might be frogs in a well but I really found it entertaining to see a guy hid behind a pillar, sitting on the floor, placing his head on a low table-like shelf with closed eyes and allowing puke to drip out of his mouth. Yes! Drip! Baby was saying that he looked like he was drooling in his sleep. Haha…

Alright, photos will be up another day. I am feeling lazy again! I have been feeling lazy this whole week. Perhaps I should just label this week as the Laze Around Week. Don’t expect too much since we didn’t take much! Thanks Tarynn for taking some photos at the last moments if not, we would be without any pictures! =)

amor,esperanza y fe 1:36 AM.

I have been so really lazy for the past few days.

It’s Wednesday already and half of week 8 is almost over but I have yet to start on the things that I planned to do. =(

My days had been eventful since my last midterm which ended on Saturday. And being an indolent kid, I haven’t been down to blogging until now.

Let’s start with Saturday then. My parents went overseas to China for a week long trip. I sent them off at the airport.

Then, Isaac came over to the airport after his midterm to have Popeyes with me. Haha.. The mashed potatoes were so delicious!

Yes! Silly me love their mashed potatoes so much that I am willing to go back again and again just for it! =)

After our savory dinner we walked around the airport and discovered THIS!

A station with metal plates carved with different designs with the Uniquely Singapore theme. They provided stacks of blank paper and a number of crayons for people to trace out the designs.

And childish as us, wouldn’t want to let this opportunity go to waste. Hence, we ended up with multiple of them.

And another picture of the lavish beauty – Isabelle Chen

After leaving the airport, we went Tampiness and I bought a pair of heels from Pazzion!

FINALLY! A pair of heels. And a small bottle of nail polish from Bourjois. They have so many miniature cosmetics! They have mini nail polish, lip gloss, blush, eyeshadow, lipstick! OMG! They are perfect for travel!

Another surprise was waiting for me as I travelled home. When I reached my neighbourhood, this was what I saw.

My gosh! I didn’t know my estate loves the Mid-Autumn Festival so much! All the little spaces were filled with lilted candles. Children and adults alike were carrying lanterns. Surprisingly, I could see no one holding on to battery-operated lanterns. All the lanterns were lilted with candles.

My neighbourhood looked so so pretty with those lilted candles! My usually quiet neighbourhood was filled with families and playing kids. It’s like a happy carnival. Haha…

Then the subsequent 3 days, I forgot to take pictures. =( So I will just narrate it.

Sunday, I finally met up with Baby and William after a long while. We had our dinner at the Food Opera at Ion. The Teochew fishball noodles ‘ chili sauce is damn nice! Those who like their fishball mee with chili should try it! But it costs a friggin 5 bucks! =(

I don’t really like the supposed famous Red-wine Hor Fun. It just tasted like a plate of well-fried Hor Fun. The red-wine taste isn’t strong and in my opinion, there is nothing unique and fabulous about it.

Monday was a day filled with gossip in school and I bought yet another bottle of nail polish from Nature Republic at Bishan.

I had been spending money like water ever since October started. I desperately need to curb my outflows before I suffer by the mid of October.

Yesterday I went for lunch with Baby at this authentic Sichuanese restaurant opposite The Concourse. The dish is called 麻辣香锅 in Chinese. Please pardon my lousy translation skills; I think it should be called something like Spicy Fragrance Pot or along this line in English. :S

I’m sorry for not taking a picture of it. It was uber delicious! It tasted just like what I had in Beijing, China. DAMN NICE!

I went with Isaac to that exact same restaurant once and he was sweating like a water tap when he had that dish. I am not exaggerating when I say water tap. His sweats were in large drops and they dripped down from his chin. So hilarious!

At long last, I watched The Ugly Truth and I am still dying for my Time Traveler’s Wife. =(

NINE is coming up too! Be Italian~~

Butter tonight! Finally, the frog is coming out of her cozy well… heehee…

amor,esperanza y fe 2:26 PM.

Yippie yippie! My midterms are finally over!!!

Consumer Banking was okay, but Corp Reporting and Business Processes are sheer killers!

Can you imagine final year student still complaining about modules that year 2s and 3s take? I guess I am the only lousy one.

=(

Anyway, on a lighter note, my friend (ex-smu student) is going to open a cafe in Bishan! It will be up and running, ready to wait on it’s guests starting next Wednesday. If you live nearby, or wanna check out some new eating place just pop by!

amor,esperanza y fe 2:28 PM.

I am a honest person. Therefore, I am confessing right here and now, that I am now surfing and blogging in my Consumer Banking class and not listening at all! heh heh…

Been wanting to put up this picture even since I first stumbled upon it a couple of days ago!

I like that bag!! Although I will LOVE it if that bronze leather part is changed to brighter colors or plain leather instead of this crocodile-pattern leather!

Not sure whether it is available in Singapore and not going to check out on its availability because I wouldn’t be able to afford it anyway!

=(

The sad life of a poor student.

amor,esperanza y fe 2:36 PM.

I managed to take a breather from all the projects which are suffocating me by going out for a proper lunch with Isaac after my corp reporting class.

And we chose this restaurant because I got a $10 dining voucher. Cheapo! I know… HEEHEE…

But what can poor students like us do? =(

The other time when I dined there with my family, I didn’t take any picture of the food. So this time round, I decided to make it up by taking picture of my lunch!

The Grilled Gala Platter for Two

They are really specialists in fish and nothing else. Their seafood doesn’t come close to Fish n Co’s standard. However, their fish is so well-cooked that it melts in your mouth and not under your fork (if you get what I mean…). HAHA…

Oh! Not forgetting the ever-gluttonous gorilla! How perfectly this photo captures his voracious essence!

That’s all folks!

Good night world! Yes! At 4.10a.m. in the morning. Please please please… no more editing to the report that we spent precious sleeping hours compiling and refining.

Having some slack time now before Tarynn comes on skype and start the slogging session over Consumer Banking report. =(

Thus, I decided to upload my cam whore pictures for the day! Had the luxury of chatting with baby earlier in the day and it reminded me of all the good times lazing around doing nothing. She sounded so excited over my birthday present that it excites me too! Haha..

Baby, please don’t be mistaken that I am usually not excited over your present. (Or should I say Baby please don’t jump into conclusions.. HAHA…)

The truth is, usually the excitement only comes the day before I received the present or on the day itself but this time round, you succeeded in generating HYPE and getting me all jumpy over my birthday present!!!  ;)

All the excitement just brought back my cam whore instincts!

The outcome?

Cam-whoring before attending the consumer banking meeting in school.

I have no idea why I took this picture while waiting for Tarynn at City Hall but it reminded me of “SPACE” with all its reflective sides.

Even my newest craze got involved into my cam whoring acts, ORGANIC BERRY BIRCHER MUESLI from Three-Sixty!!!

Been eating it for the past 2 days. Love it! =)

P.S.// Perhaps my birthday won’t be such a disaster afterall.

There’s tons of things to do,

loads of things to start on.

But I simply can’t find the mood to work on.

The skies are grey here and the rain is about to fall,

this is yet,

another restless day.

P.S.// I guess Oasis is restless too cause’ its loading so ever slowly!!!

I should be hitting the books for corp reporting since I might need to do adjustments for my corp project regarding the last week’s topic. I am planning for a rainy day since we got assigned to do the adjustments for operating leases. =( Who knows what responsibilities will fall upon us again! But I am feeling lazy and reading all the blogs just makes me feel like blogging too!

It had been a terrible time for me so far. At least from last Saturday all the way till yesterday. It was hectic and full of hiccups.

I was down with a bad flu since Friday and rationally, I started to pop pills to rid myself of it. But a dumbo like me ended up aggravating my condition. There were 2 types of flu medicine that I need to pop. One is a drowsy formula for night and one is a non-drowsy formula for day. And your Ms. Dumbo here, stupidly went to pop both inside her mouth on Saturday night.OMG! What a waste of medicine and such a dangerous act!

Then Sunday came although the flu is still there, there was nothing suspicious. However, by the time night falls, my head started to spin. I was down with a horrible headache which I speculated to stem from popping the wrong medicine. DUMB! DUMB! DUMB!

Never mind.

So my weekend was burnt with projects except for an Ion trip with my parents on Sunday evening. I felt so bad for not being able to stay up to read through the stuff that Mel and Tarynn came up with for Consumer Banking.

Monday was a wonder as well. Tarynn and I skipped our 12 noon risk class and went about doing projects. I was clearing up files for the operating leases and marketing for consumer banking while she looked through the notes. Then came the E-bomb (since its through email…HAHA…)! Our business processes group mates went to consult the prof without our knowledge and the email made it sounds like the prof wants us to change our whole concept. Anyway, it turned out to be a misunderstanding and we just need to add on to our existing idea to make it more grand and large-scale. PHEW! What a scare!

Something is wrong with me. There are stories about people turning into werewolves when night falls on full moon days. But I turned into a dumbo every night when I am down with flu. So here comes another dumbo episode.

I had plans to sort out the stupid GDP problem that we had with the economic analysis of our corp reporting project and probably read through the marketing and operations plan for consumer banking yesterday night. But again, STUPIDLY, I went to take my drowsy flu medicine. I am really DUMB! I am speechless at myself. And I only realized my mistake shortly after I turned on my laptop.

FINE! I can live with that.

Then came the second mistake which is more severe than the first. I finally remembered that I need to book my driving test this coming Dec. So I went to check the dates and apparently, because I was so busy with projects in the past weekend, I missed the date that I wanted which was 17^th Dec by one day and the earliest date available to me was 18^th Dec. But sad to say, 18^th Dec was only left with the bad timing of 8.25am. So I decided to give it a miss! Then there were slots available till 22^nd Dec. I was in a dilemma of whether to wait for the 23^rd Dec timings to be released or take up the 21^st Dec date since there was a 2.45pm slot which was good. 22^nd Dec was only left with 3.45pm slot which I found to be too late. As a kiasu Singaporean, I decided to just take 21^st Dec 2.45pm first before it gets booked out and probably I can change to 23^rd Dec when it becomes available.

BANG! BANG! BANG! WRONG MOVE! TERRIBLE MOVE!

It slipped off my mind that once you booked your test date, you CANNOT cancel and change to another slot or date because they wouldn’t refund you a single cent! That means your 156 bucks will go down the drain! I turned cold.

Moral of the story?

NEVER EVER ATTEMPT TO DO ANYTHING WHEN YOU ARE DROWSY! JUST GO TO SLEEP EVEN IF YOU WORRY ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCES!!!

And now, Ms. Dumbo is stuck with a driving test date of 21^st Dec (Monday) at 2.45pm without revision lessons on 20^th Dec and 19^th Dec. =( I really hope I don’t fail again if not I might consider getting my parents to forget about ever seeing me drive. The amount of money that I see flying into the driving centre’s pockets is perhaps enough to finance my online buys for 1 year! Ehhh.. perhaps 8 months… No! 1 year! My heart was in great pain whenever I make online payments for my driving lessons. =(

Nonetheless, stubborn Ms. Dumbo in her distress mode still did up the GDP calculations for corp reporting after whining and whining to Mr. Mugger and her baby about her blunder. By the time I finished, my head was really spinning at such a great speed that I fell asleep, uncomfortably. By the time I woke up again, I realized that Tarynn asked me a question about consumer banking project via MSN but my sis had turned off the internet and I couldn’t reply her. =(

I am so sorry, Tarynn! Thanks Mel and Tarynn for doing up the final copy of the marketing and operations plan for consumer banking! I am sorry that I wasn’t able to look through it every time you girls finished. =(

Thanks baby and Mr. Mugger to hear me whine and whine about my stupid driving test dates.

Okay! I had my share of whining. Below are some pictures of the fascinating G2000’s reflective walls in Ion. I guess these walls might be all around Ion but we only discovered it’s wonders in G2000! Heehee…

Look at how weirdly skewed we were! Heehee…

Then daddy looloo came to join in the fun!

Gotta hit the books now so that I can have time for a short nap later to rest my weary body. I really need to rid this flu fast before all the deadlines come hunting for me!

Oh! And I think I am really powerful at whining! Just look at the length of this post! HAHA…

Woke up with flu at the wrong side of the bed today so evil thoughts kept running through my little wicked mind. HAHA…

I dislike people who push past you without saying excuse me or sorry. I was wondering whether they didn’t realize that it is very irritating and rude or they just don’t care. Then I came up with a third option that probably they know they are irritating but they are bidding on the fact that people usually wouldn’t be rude to strangers even if they are offended (at least for minor cases). So, they can happily push through people without saying excuse me and sorry and they wouldn’t come face to face with any confrontations.

I would love to see someone shout at one of these irritating people. STOP PUSHING IDIOTS!!!

Okay, I told you I am cranky today. So evil! Let’s talk about yesterday then.

Isaac brought me to this cool place called Archipelago. It is near to Raffles Place and Clarke Quay. We went there after his interview at UOB Plaza 2.

They brew their own beers and they provide 6 different flavours of which 5 are white beers and 1 is a dark beer.

We tried the Straits beer which is on the left and Sammu on the right. I know I know… They both look about the same. HAHA… Too bad, I was having blocked nose and I couldn’t really taste the beers just the bitter aftertaste. =( But one thing I can testify, their beers were DAMN SMOOTH! Superb! It’s almost like drinking water! Isaac loves both the flavours and I think we are definitely going back there! We like the atmosphere and they do not have noisy background thus, it is easy to chill and chat.

We had tequila chips with chili con carne (beef). It is delicious especially the chili con carne. Yummy!

Look at Isaac’s lecherous face as he attacked the tequila chips with lust.

Not forgetting the cheese sausage with potato wedges. Another palatable dish! But I prefer the tequila chips. I was craving for Mexican food but their chicken quesadillas was sold out for the day. =( How sad! I really wanted to eat that!

Why is he always attacking food with such vigor? Hmmm….

Caught in the act pictures! Haha.. I think Isaac’s mum will faint if she were to see these pictures. HAHA.

When I am bored, I will browse through the pictures on my phone and I discovered a couple of pictures where I looked weird. The first one, I have no idea how come my eyes looked so small and thin. I looked like I am going to fall asleep. The second one captured me with an awkward expression. I should be wearing a glutton expression since I am posing with the delectable tequila chips! Weird! The last one, my eyes looked sly. HAHA…

Okay, this is random.

Anyway, I am going to sleep my flu medicine’s effect is kicking in and I feel drowsy. =(

Oh! Thank you Tarynn for introducing me to 2NE1. I love em’! Can you believe it? I am watching their videos on youtube almost everyday. I am NUTS!

What will He not bestow!

Who freely gave this mighty gift unbought,

Unmerited, unheeded, and unsought,

What will He not bestow?

It’s just comforting to know that no matter how grave the matter is or how tough the trial will be, you will always live past it. Now when I looked back at my posts last week which are full of antsy comments and depressing writings, I felt like laughing out loud. I guess it happens to all of us. When you look back at some ordeal you went through in the past and narrating it to others, even though you kept describing it as tough or horrific etc., you will usually describe it with smiles and laughter.

So since everything will ultimately revert back to normal and a stable state, the only part left that is difficult is the process. It is always painful or even unbearable to know that you are still in-process. Waking up everyday, remembering the terrible things that fell upon you and getting the sick feeling in your stomach and not wanting to get out of bed but you are left with no choice and have to get your ass out because you can’t afford not to. It’s the harsh reality of life that sometimes makes you feel like you are all alone and left to fend for yourself. Then you become depressed. The thing isn’t about being all alone; it’s about being alone and stuck in a shitty situation. That’s what’s makes people go nuts!

I felt happy that I have my Lord (I am sorry to all my friends who doesn’t share my faith especially if you felt uncomfortable reading thisL). At least as I make my way through the tough times, I know there is someone there with me and who will not only hold me through but also ease my pain. There is someone to turn to when you need help in things that fellow humans won’t be able to aid in - someone who is undefeatable.

At times I felt bad towards the Lord. It’s like I always remember Him when I am in need of help but during the good times, I do remember Him too but I guess I don’t seek Him as intensely as I do during distressful times. In times of suffering (maybe it’s too serious a word… HAHA), I tend to forget about kind and loving people like my family and friends (Isaac inclusive) and felt that I am all alone in that depressing situation. And I go all emotional and dispirited. I only remember the Lord (realistic? Maybe…)

But it is also in times like these where I give my full thanks to the Lord. Not only for knowing Him but also for what He has done.

I have so much to blog about I don’t know where to start! Okay, let’s start with the newest addition to my wishlist.

This cool Gucci wallet that I saw on someone else’s blog! And I love it! Stole this picture from that blog. Heehee… like any normal greedy human being, I want to see other colours available for this wallet!

Love the ribbon at the top! =)

Moving on to slightly more serious stuff…(its not that serious anyway :P), I was wondering about Tarynn’s blog post along with all the recent broken hearts I heard about.

I wonder, I really do, as to whether it is true that you need to be tortured by love before you get to a perfect one.

I remembered the times when things were ugly between me and my ex and all the foolish things that I did.

How pissed I was at myself for being such an idiot and blah blah blah…

But it all seemed to be in the past. So vague and long-ago that it seemed decades ago when it all took place. I just know that it was a horrendous situation that I never want to be in again but I couldn’t exactly emphathise with myself of the long ago anymore.

I feel lucky for the current stable relationship even though there are still many flaws in it. But then and again, which relationship doesn’t?

At least at this present moment, I felt lucky that my relationship is not giving me major problems and heartbreaks that will push me to pray for the ground to swallow me up or a deadly accident to befall upon me so that I could escape it’s menace.

But, who knows? It might one day developed into a pain in my ass just like how it was decades ago with another someone.

Is it really true? That this stability that I am enjoying in the present was because I suffered in the past? Ain’t there anyone out there who hasn’t suffered before? And is it really true that my love torture is totally over? Or this is just the calmness before the storm? Well, we will see about that.

I wonder again about other stuff. On Sunday in my church, the elder gave a message with these three formulae.

Faithful + Workless = Dead Faith

Faithless + Good works = Dead Works

Faithful + Good works = Perfect Faith

As you can safely project, the elder was encouraging us to move towards the last formula. I suppose I fall under the first formula in case you are wondering. HAHA…

I wondered about this particular bitch (sorry but I can’t help but typed that because certain things that she did and I heard just piss me off!) okay girl.

Well, actually I don’t know her at all but the impression I got was that she seemed to do a lot of community service. That is good works right?

So let’s assume she’s got strong faith and assume that her community service is considered good works. That means she has perfect faith?!!! Then what about all those sickening things that she did?

Perhaps these formulae are still flawed. Or there are some assumptions that weren’t specified. Perhaps, something like by being faithful, you are supposed to display only good behavior.

This whole post is so unorganized and desultory!!!

I am sorry! That’s what happened when you have too much thoughts but too little time to blog. ;)

Cancel me cancel me

I am always the first

When events clash and choice need to be made

I am always the first to be cut.

What’s new?

I didn’t think that shit brings over itself to the next day. But it does.

Because I am experiencing it right now!

Shit comes at the same time, don’t they?

As if one isn’t enough for one to bear, they like to come in gangs. Even the stupid rain is joining their fun.

Talk about demoralizing. How “down” do they want you to be before they are satisfied? Or their lust for your suffering is insatiable?

Since I will be busy at the wake this week, I should be doing something more constructive than blogging when I have time to spare.

But apparently, I am not. HAHA..

I am still pondering over the question of whether my uncle’s death was a matter to be depressed about or it should be viewed more optimistically. Well my uncle is a Buddhist/ Taoist, correct me if I am wrong but it should be that, for them a good man goes to heaven. Even if he doesn’t, the netherworld’s life is viewed to be about the same as the living world since people burn “houses”, “cars” and all sorts of things for the dead.

Since death isn’t equivalent to suffering for a good man, then it only voices down to the reason for the death. Definitely people have negative feelings towards suicide cases because we felt that it’s similar to murder. I guess it’s whether the death is natural or unnatural and whether we believed the person to have much unfulfilled matters. If the person have much unfulfilled matters in our view (e.g. premature death) or it’s an unnatural death, we will feel sorry for the person.

For my uncle, he had 3 children and out of the 3, only 1 is married. So perhaps, he might be worried for them. Then and again if you view it from another angle, all his children are grown-ups and they can take care of themselves well so that shouldn’t be an unsettling matter for my uncle. That’s my guess.

Actually, I don’t want to think of his death as a negative event although it’s sudden. It may be bereaved for my cousins and us but to him, maybe he doesn’t have much matters left in this world that he would desperately need to complete. My assumption again.

Maybe it’s my self-deceiving thought but I just want to think of it as he could finally reunion with his wife who passed away last year and that he doesn’t have much unfulfilled matters.

I hope I am right.

Sorry to disgust you guys with the above collage. But anyway, that’s what I did last Saturday. I was at Bishan community library with Mr. Mugger because he is having a midterm today.

As you can see and imagine, I was the one fooling around and being a major disturbance while our dear Mr. Mugger was slogging away with wonderfully ugly formulas and scaring me with them at the same time. They looked distinctly like integration and differentiation.

YUCKZ!

I think I am going off for a nap. I hope I can wake up later. =(

Need to get back to the wake. My whole week will be spent between the wake and school. =(

To be honest, secretly I felt happy. An excuse to escape from those nasty books! Heh heh.

Oh! And I finally went for a hair cut. Now the only pending matter to attend to is my dental checkup. ;)

I can’t feel as optimistic about my uncle’s death in comparison with my granny’s death.

Perhaps its due to the fact that its a sudden death whereas, my granny died at a ripe old age. Although we all missed her and can’t bear to part with her, we all know that perhaps it’s time for her to go. Plus, I guess we all felt that we did our very best to take care and accompany her when she was alive.

But my uncle, my uncle who doted on me since I was young, who took care of me when I was little, I can’t say I did all I can to accompany and care for him like he did for me. =(

So as promised, the photos from Queue Factory.

Tarynn, I really need to thank you for your amazing photography skills and awesome camera! Thanks for making my arms looked not as gigantic as it is in reality!

Thanks Tarynn for them! Without your camera, I think we will really end up with no pictures because my phone camera was too lousy and the pictures that I took were all blurred but one random picture that I took of the club.

Here are some desultory pictures that I took while waiting at the platform at Raffles Place before heading over to Butter.

Butter Factory should be re-named Queue Factory on its ladies night. First, you need to queue to get in, next you need to queue to get your drinks.

Seriously, I didn’t know ladies night was so packed at Butter. Although my upcoming advice will sound absurd, especially to seasoned clubbers, but really, get your ass down there by 9p.m.!! It isn’t the least bit crazy. Trust me! It will make your night much better!

We started queuing at around 10.30p.m. The queue was already friggin’ long and by the time we got into the club, it’s already 12a.m.!!! Then we had to queue for our drinks again!! The worst of all is that after queuing for around 45 minutes we couldn’t meet the 1a.m. mark and had to pay for our drinks. The start of the night is just queues, queues and more queues. =(

To add on to the disaster equation, dumbo me wore my new heels to Butter yesterday and my legs were in great distress. My feet were numb from the pain but I am lucky enough to avoid abrasions and blisters.

What irritated the hell out of me was this gang of “ang mohs” queuing in the drinks queue behind us. They were a tipsy and rowdy crowd. Not only did they cut queue, they were hitting each other and fooling around without a care about the people around. I swear I would seriously had cursed F*** at them if one of them hit me amidst their game of folly. I wasn’t in the best of my moods then with my aching legs and my queue fatigue.

You see, the queues at Butter are the most horrendous and much-hated sort. The sort that doesn’t move and when it does, it was as slow as a snail.

Reading up till here, you must be thinking that I had a lousy night at Butter.

But to be honest, it was FUN!

Exhilarating!

After the queuing episode, things went from bad to Best!

It was quite fun to dance around with Baby but it’s a shame that I didn’t get to dance with Deep, Tarynn, Mel and Sue since we got separated. The music at Butter was good and I was enjoying myself even when I didn’t get high on alcohol. I was completely SOBER! =( Boo!

William, baby and I rotated around the 2 room! We had to!

You see the music at Bump is more hip, popular and definitely the nice kinds that you would want to dance to. But it was so crowded, stuffy and hot over at Bump that we had to escape back to Fash which was in a more Mambo mood. Fash’s dance floor was a lot less packed till the point that it was cold inside. And since by the time we went into Bump, we couldn’t make it into the dance floor proper, we decided to move around the 2 rooms to balance our comfort and music choice.

We met a few funny guys in the dance floor but nothing major happened, no weird hands and if there were, I would gladly bring that guy back to earth by taking the liberty to drop my foot in high heel on his foot at free fall speed.

Although we were without “guy luck”, we did stumble upon some interesting sightings. We saw this male drunkard whom we found amusing. Perhaps we might be frogs in a well but I really found it entertaining to see a guy hid behind a pillar, sitting on the floor, placing his head on a low table-like shelf with closed eyes and allowing puke to drip out of his mouth. Yes! Drip! Baby was saying that he looked like he was drooling in his sleep. Haha…

Alright, photos will be up another day. I am feeling lazy again! I have been feeling lazy this whole week. Perhaps I should just label this week as the Laze Around Week. Don’t expect too much since we didn’t take much! Thanks Tarynn for taking some photos at the last moments if not, we would be without any pictures! =)

I have been so really lazy for the past few days.

It’s Wednesday already and half of week 8 is almost over but I have yet to start on the things that I planned to do. =(

My days had been eventful since my last midterm which ended on Saturday. And being an indolent kid, I haven’t been down to blogging until now.

Let’s start with Saturday then. My parents went overseas to China for a week long trip. I sent them off at the airport.

Then, Isaac came over to the airport after his midterm to have Popeyes with me. Haha.. The mashed potatoes were so delicious!

Yes! Silly me love their mashed potatoes so much that I am willing to go back again and again just for it! =)

After our savory dinner we walked around the airport and discovered THIS!

A station with metal plates carved with different designs with the Uniquely Singapore theme. They provided stacks of blank paper and a number of crayons for people to trace out the designs.

And childish as us, wouldn’t want to let this opportunity go to waste. Hence, we ended up with multiple of them.

And another picture of the lavish beauty – Isabelle Chen

After leaving the airport, we went Tampiness and I bought a pair of heels from Pazzion!

FINALLY! A pair of heels. And a small bottle of nail polish from Bourjois. They have so many miniature cosmetics! They have mini nail polish, lip gloss, blush, eyeshadow, lipstick! OMG! They are perfect for travel!

Another surprise was waiting for me as I travelled home. When I reached my neighbourhood, this was what I saw.

My gosh! I didn’t know my estate loves the Mid-Autumn Festival so much! All the little spaces were filled with lilted candles. Children and adults alike were carrying lanterns. Surprisingly, I could see no one holding on to battery-operated lanterns. All the lanterns were lilted with candles.

My neighbourhood looked so so pretty with those lilted candles! My usually quiet neighbourhood was filled with families and playing kids. It’s like a happy carnival. Haha…

Then the subsequent 3 days, I forgot to take pictures. =( So I will just narrate it.

Sunday, I finally met up with Baby and William after a long while. We had our dinner at the Food Opera at Ion. The Teochew fishball noodles ‘ chili sauce is damn nice! Those who like their fishball mee with chili should try it! But it costs a friggin 5 bucks! =(

I don’t really like the supposed famous Red-wine Hor Fun. It just tasted like a plate of well-fried Hor Fun. The red-wine taste isn’t strong and in my opinion, there is nothing unique and fabulous about it.

Monday was a day filled with gossip in school and I bought yet another bottle of nail polish from Nature Republic at Bishan.

I had been spending money like water ever since October started. I desperately need to curb my outflows before I suffer by the mid of October.

Yesterday I went for lunch with Baby at this authentic Sichuanese restaurant opposite The Concourse. The dish is called 麻辣香锅 in Chinese. Please pardon my lousy translation skills; I think it should be called something like Spicy Fragrance Pot or along this line in English. :S

I’m sorry for not taking a picture of it. It was uber delicious! It tasted just like what I had in Beijing, China. DAMN NICE!

I went with Isaac to that exact same restaurant once and he was sweating like a water tap when he had that dish. I am not exaggerating when I say water tap. His sweats were in large drops and they dripped down from his chin. So hilarious!

At long last, I watched The Ugly Truth and I am still dying for my Time Traveler’s Wife. =(

NINE is coming up too! Be Italian~~

Butter tonight! Finally, the frog is coming out of her cozy well… heehee…

Yippie yippie! My midterms are finally over!!!

Consumer Banking was okay, but Corp Reporting and Business Processes are sheer killers!

Can you imagine final year student still complaining about modules that year 2s and 3s take? I guess I am the only lousy one.

=(

Anyway, on a lighter note, my friend (ex-smu student) is going to open a cafe in Bishan! It will be up and running, ready to wait on it’s guests starting next Wednesday. If you live nearby, or wanna check out some new eating place just pop by!

I am a honest person. Therefore, I am confessing right here and now, that I am now surfing and blogging in my Consumer Banking class and not listening at all! heh heh…

Been wanting to put up this picture even since I first stumbled upon it a couple of days ago!

I like that bag!! Although I will LOVE it if that bronze leather part is changed to brighter colors or plain leather instead of this crocodile-pattern leather!

Not sure whether it is available in Singapore and not going to check out on its availability because I wouldn’t be able to afford it anyway!

=(

The sad life of a poor student.