


What will He not bestow!
Who freely gave this mighty gift unbought,
Unmerited, unheeded, and unsought,
What will He not bestow?
It’s just comforting to know that no matter how grave the matter is or how tough the trial will be, you will always live past it. Now when I looked back at my posts last week which are full of antsy comments and depressing writings, I felt like laughing out loud. I guess it happens to all of us. When you look back at some ordeal you went through in the past and narrating it to others, even though you kept describing it as tough or horrific etc., you will usually describe it with smiles and laughter.
So since everything will ultimately revert back to normal and a stable state, the only part left that is difficult is the process. It is always painful or even unbearable to know that you are still in-process. Waking up everyday, remembering the terrible things that fell upon you and getting the sick feeling in your stomach and not wanting to get out of bed but you are left with no choice and have to get your ass out because you can’t afford not to. It’s the harsh reality of life that sometimes makes you feel like you are all alone and left to fend for yourself. Then you become depressed. The thing isn’t about being all alone; it’s about being alone and stuck in a shitty situation. That’s what’s makes people go nuts!
I felt happy that I have my Lord (I am sorry to all my friends who doesn’t share my faith especially if you felt uncomfortable reading thisL). At least as I make my way through the tough times, I know there is someone there with me and who will not only hold me through but also ease my pain. There is someone to turn to when you need help in things that fellow humans won’t be able to aid in - someone who is undefeatable.
At times I felt bad towards the Lord. It’s like I always remember Him when I am in need of help but during the good times, I do remember Him too but I guess I don’t seek Him as intensely as I do during distressful times. In times of suffering (maybe it’s too serious a word… HAHA), I tend to forget about kind and loving people like my family and friends (Isaac inclusive) and felt that I am all alone in that depressing situation. And I go all emotional and dispirited. I only remember the Lord (realistic? Maybe…)
But it is also in times like these where I give my full thanks to the Lord. Not only for knowing Him but also for what He has done.
amor,esperanza y fe 10:16 PM.
